missing you

2009-09-13T04:53:00.004+08:00

Been reali busy recently... Just home. It was the graduation show for the top 20 finalist model, was held at (LUNAR) won the membership card.. heh!!! Got my cert for the modeling course. Im so happy:) Finally finish all the course, im now a professional model!!! HAHAHA!! shirley is now a (pro model).. Sounds funny right... I couldn't believe it. Im working hard hoping to success in my career. I really love my job. Though sometimes its quite tiring but its really fun. Sometimes get scolding but u'll learn more from the scolding:P

Birthday celebrating was quite happening.. Infact it was the best birthday celebration compare to the past 20 years.. haha.. i invited alot of friends.. They did not disappoint me.. All were there..Big thanks to ex-colleague from (APPLE TELECOM), Wei jie, yaya and friends, shiwei, wei ting, esther, lesmin, doreen, angie, diana, gary, melson, chua and friends, fion (best sister), alex and friends, kenneth, leon, don and friends, Mr Lim ( my daddy) and all his brother, ah yen (my cousin), hui ling ( my cousin) and friends, Jie jie ( my real sister), Desmond, alvin and friends, Hair stylist (JEAN YIP).. Hope i didn't miss out anyone.. If i do pls accept my apologies:) Really appreciate all your presence and presents!!! Love all so muchie:p Also Thanks artist from (CLUB RATCHADA), artist manager ( ICE), dancer manager (NOEL), club GM (PATRIK), Boss (Leste).. Thanks all for giving me such a memorable birthday.. Something sad is i didn't have a camera yet. All happy occasion NO PHOTOS!!!! Arrgh! But i hope you guys did enjoy alrightssss!!

Coming up next will be OCT 18 and 24, my 2 little precious birthday. Mummy will celebrate grand grand for the both of you.. Mummy is working hard to give both of you a better life.. Love both of you most most la:@ Heez..

Will upload photos when i real free.. heez.. So tired..

Nite everyone.

Loves

Shirley:X

2009-09-01T05:19:00.005+08:00

The hat is too big for me lal... haha

Had been busy recently with works, rehearsal and show.. And in the month of aug both my ah gong passed away.. Im sick for almost the entire month of aug.. Gotta get leave and realli rest at home.. Body is getting weaker:( Must get well soon.. I wan to go for holiday. Eat lots of yummy food:p Yeah!! Happy everyday:X My birthday is on next wed 9 sept, will be celebrating on 8 sept night at club ratchada:) So happy..

Loves

Shirley

2009-08-03T13:20:00.004+08:00

Everythings over.. I just wanna end bf life.. So sick and tired.. Im realli sorry.. I cant commit anything. Being alone is fun too:) Im happy.. With or W/O bf doesn't concern me.. Will upload photo when im free.. Now rushing for training...

2009-07-15T12:26:00.004+08:00

Do you know who is she?? haha she's so cute!!

Guess only auntie or uncle know who is he:p

Bought cleanser at $75, Day moisturizer $288 and Night moisturizer $98. Damn expensive for the day moisturizer! But its really good.. I've tried it before:) It contains alot of ginseng essence:)

This was taken during the grand opening of RATCHADA:) We have special show for that day..

See!!! My make up.. Got crystal somemore!! haha

My Baobei:@

Been busy recently.. Im so tired but happy.. I love going work:) Except that day when i partner with those senior dancer!! stack like they really so eh sai!! I might not lose to you gals ok.. So far my flower almost everday top..Its not that you can dance better then can say ppl lo!! Obviously they are jealous!!.Pissed off by what they had said!! Really dun feel like going on off! Whenever i off my heart will be damn pain!! Money will never finish earning but i got no more time.. Im afraid i will leave my son one day.. Accident happen everyday.. So i have to earn more and save more!! Whatever i do is all for the sake of my family.. Sometimes im really tired and hot temper.. Please understand i dun mean it.. Sorry mummy.. I really love you de..Will be getting busier.. More show coming up.. Went for my modelling training last 2 days.. Its was fun learning catwalk and alot alot of right posture...still a few lesson more to go.. The last 2 lesson will be learning make up..weehsss!! Love it.. Going for photo shoot tmr for my portfolio de.. So happy.. All are sponsor by JCM ( JEFFREY CHUNG MODELS) Heez.. Will upload more photos next month:) Gonna buy camera next month.. Heez No more wait... haha.. Gonna meet dad later before i go for work.. Dunno what he wanna say.. Haiz.. Gonna rest awhile first.. Good night...

2009-06-25T00:10:00.009+08:00

Ha!! Im so busy recently. Alot to say at this part of time though im so tired and not feeling well. I have resign from boss and request for a immediate resignation. It approved! I started on my new job:p Working at CLUB RATCHADA!! My income will be much more stable:) Went interview yesterday morning at Jeffrey Chung Model (JCM) the company is quite well known and they actully recruit me as a model:) I'll be damn busy after i sign a contract with them on July which is next month. Im happy i can earn alot alot. hahaha.. Thanks to aunt:) Met alot of mediacorp artist at CLUB RATCHADA. Is boss friend la.. Ha haha.. I took photos with them.. And soon i'll be going cycling with them im so so so happy... heez:p Boss will lend me his few thousands dollar bicycle to ride... Haaaa.. Yesterday took boss car back after work:p As dear overslept:( haha but never mind i know he is tired. I took boss GTR back:p It was cool!!!! hahah but i dunno how to open the door then he taught me.. So pai seh lo.. Never seat in such expensive car before.. Heh heh.. Everyday same life wake up go eat with dear then to his pub then from there i go work.. After work dear will fetch me.. He really ok ok la.. Nothing much to complain liao... Im really contented with my life.. I have alot alot now.. Dun have to worry for anything... Money, Love, everything i have.. Most important is i have mummy and both precious by my side.. heez.. Next what i have to do is focus on my career... Don wanna let both my high paid job run away... Weehsss.. Anyone want to earn 5k a month?? Do give me a call:p hooooossss!! Im on MC today cough till throat swollen.. And auntie come today stomach so pain.. I must get more tonic for myself i just feel that im getting weaker.. Haiz..Im happy real happy. Just worried for my health.. Missed the check up today. Overslept:x Will call up tmr to make appt again.. ok! Gonna rest awhile then open door for dear when he's home:) Tmr outing with both precious:) hahahahah heez weeeeehsss!! Good night ladies!!

2009-06-16T13:34:00.001+08:00

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Old Photossss

2009-06-14T19:32:00.013+08:00

Dear took this picture while im sitting at the back of his car:pis car:p

This was taken at VIVO CITY..

Looks like a happy family:)

This was taken at ILLUZION before i start to blog! Hahaha

At Sabai Sabai with all my friends. Met Jing pei at ILLUZION so i ask her along too:)

Me and xiao pang!!! He's really a good friend!

Me and my god- daddy.. I call him daddy:)

Miss Bai and me! We have alot of fun at Sabai...

Mr Yao and me!! He doesn't like me to call him Shixiang:p

My face still so red, bcoz one and a half hr ago just reach home...

On our way to massage:)

Ah Boy and me!! At Sabai!! Haha!!

This was taken before we leave home today:p

Im happy with whatever i have now, everyone is good to me.I have lots of clubbing friends. Once i have time i will bring two precious out:) Sabai almost everyday for last week. FUN! but late and mc back to my punch again. Sad:( Duno should i convert to PART TIME after i start my night job..... Now blogging at ILLUZION..haha! Hate my working attitude! Sucks! Really feel that im not suitable to be an in charge!! Im getting more and more jia lat!! Nvr focus on work kept clubbing everyday... Shall stop here!! Tired. Blog again tmr!! Oh ya!! My BF david!! Will intro more during my next blogging session.. Hahaha.. Duno what will mummy think of him? He's really good to me:) okok!! Gonna enjoy my night!!

2009-06-08T01:54:00.003+08:00

Ha haha!! Blogging @ xiao bai hse:) We're so near.. All staying woodlands area nia:p Sales was good yesterday. Im happy too:) Glad to see LG has some improvment. Hope the boss will think that too. Today 6 hs, not bad lal.. Heez. Alot of things happen this few days.

Met hubby peng ex wife "SHINI" at tam1, she's working there also. Same level some more. So suei. She told me alot of rubbish at first im quite pissed off by the things she said but i kept to myself. Today mummy called me, asking why i 2 weeks never go home? Its true i didn't went home. Im sleeping at HIS house.. Its so near to work, he send me to work everyday:p Don even know how long i never top up ez link liao.. haha.Save alot. But i told a lie to mummy i said i did went home just they didn't saw me as i went home late everyday and went off to work early in the morning. I felt guilty but i just hate going back there after hearing so much from shini. End up i told mummy everthing and mummy actually called hubby peng mum's to clarify. Don wish to elaborate much. But after clarifying i felt eased:p Infact that stupid women is lying to me. Is all her own story to attack me. Really stupid of me to actually believed her. haiz.. But everthings over now:p I need to go home show face today, infact till friday better:) haha.

Then friday night gng Sabai with xiao bai, cheryl and..... dunno.. haha. Cannot drunk liao. Last sat went Sabai with Yao shixiang, Xiao bai, teck, ah hao.... duno whats their name.. haha Was drunk then hit table haha. Xiao bai fell down outside Sabai. So stupid! After Sabai headed to ILLUZION. Dear was quite unhappy bcoz i drank too much.. But still ok la. Vomited twice that night following day was late for work:( 12 PLUS then reach work. Was late today also. 1PLUS. worse lolz.

Went Vivo City last wed with baby and HIM!! Happy outing that day.Heez...

Have uploaded baby colouring conpetition at school. Zhiyu ( crespo) Won the 2nd price.. My son is so clever, Just like his daddy. But dun be silly like your dad ok? Mummy loves the both of you. Hpoe you all don hate me in future. I will try my very best to give both of u the best life:) Im trying hard now. Finding chance to earn more money:p

okok!! Shall stop here liao.. Xiao bai and cheryl is complaining for leaving them alone.. Saying im writing composition. haha. Their cute.. Loves all ppl in tam1. They are really friendly...

Nightz everyone:)

2009-06-04T14:32:00.006+08:00

Im in love with this song!! Just today:p must learn how to sing is a very nice song if you sing it with your heart of course with nice voice also lal!! haha

我不是你想像的那麽勇敢!!!

有时候太坚强笑容却填不满眼眶越是想要隐藏歌声就唱的更响亮直到入到心底最深处你不要追问我还缺了些什麽
每个人都有梦幸福总站在最远方心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手拥抱谁的心是我最後一站我强问我自己现在还没有个答案
我不是你想像那麽勇敢多想让你保护能流泪一场让我放下武装像个孩子一样单纯的把爱情放在你心上
每个人都有梦幸福总站在最远方心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手拥抱谁的心是我最後一站我强问我自己现在还没有个答案
我不是你想像那麽勇敢多想让你保护能流泪一场让我放下武装像个孩子一样单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像总是扮演坚强多想让你知道我也要个伴放下讨厌武装像个孩子一样单纯的把爱情放在你心上我不是你想像的那麽勇敢

Dunno what is happening to me today. Suddenly saw something felt uneasy then i called him. No answer... After awhile the shop phone rang and i know it was him i quickly picked up. This should not be what i should be doing or thinking. Am i right? I felt eased after that call. I know im selfish i dun wanna be back but at the same time i dun wish other to have him too.. Im hesitating each and evertime i think of this. I hate myself! My mind is in a swirl now. Since when i became like this! Except for im more mature when talking this is how i feel, but other than this i just feel that im more and more nearer to my past, which i hate the most! What should i do? I cant even stand firm with whatever decision i've made. Sorry Peng! I know i should really give up and let him have his own happiness. Stand firm with what im now. Life to be continue. Since given up so long why still thinking? Am i right. Really hope you can find your happiness and move on happily. Always drive your bike with extra care. This is what i worried the most. As a friend what i can say is just this much and i do hope we can be very good friends. I know you be looking at my blog one of this day:p

After a while, he called me again. Askes what i wanna eat he bought dinner for me. Im happy at first to see him. But after chatting for awhile i notice he didn't change at all. The way he talk is still the same. The feeling was totally different from what i think. Perharps i think too much. I just wan to say though im poor now but it'll be over soon. Real soon. Im more happy after seeing him. Infact i know what i wan now! I stand firm with my decision:)

Sales bad today, its so quiet. No crowd! Till now only sold 2 hs. Haiz! Gotta work hard for today sales:) Good luck to shirley:p

2009-06-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

Haha!! Blogging at fion hse. Shooting later. Her bf just cooked super damn hot chilli maggi for me. So hot, now my face so red dunno later the photos all will turn out like what, haha. itch somemore lol. Poor gal. Will shoot more nice photos and post it soon. Heez. kk. now going for a bath then continue to blog later when i go home:)

2009-06-02T00:13:00.002+08:00

Finally today im able to blog liao:)So scary i just bath out was shocked to see my leg got red rashes. My leg already not very nice now still like that. Think have to spend money on my leg liao. Do some treatment or what.Ha ha..With money dun have to scared about anything. Yes! This is the life i always wanted. Sales was bad today. 4hs only:( Was mc yesterday, somemore is weekend and sat i work till abt 6pm only. Having fever:( This month NO MORE MC AND LATENESS.! Today is starting of a new month. I promise to be a good girl. Commission for last month was really bad!!! Hai!! Baby was sick too:( Having fever also. Poor boy. Mummy really busy got no time to keep both of u company. Sorry, mummy feel bad too. Miss you all every min when im at work.I really got nothing much to blog nowaday, no camera, no photos sometimes i dun even remember what happen the day before today.Arrgh@#4fsu#.

2009-05-26T01:15:00.002+08:00

Ha haha!! Finally tks to waitress from ILLUZION! I've master the skill of link! Yeah:p Have linked those i remember:) Will master more!! Money money i wan more money!! Spend alot last month. Damn lot.. Must earn back the money. Will be getting a part time job at night 3 days per weeks to get extra income. So i don have to worry so much for money. Wanted to get camera for so long still not yet buy. So sad. No photos to upload. Phone camera? I don even have a phone of my own now. Thanks to the lost phone. Fcuking angry. Hai. Using FION htc diamond now. So difficult to use.I only know how to call and sms... Heh.. Maybe gng BKK or TIOMAN next month depends la.. Chances not high. Tied to work. Don wish to take leave during this dificult period. Save more then go ba:( Will not leave APPLE TELECOM! Really love there. Boss is good to give me a chance to prove myself, even at last if not promoted at least i know my standard. Will continue to work hard. Hoping to give my mother in law more money. She's really ke lian to have me as a daughter in law like me. I always wanted to have spare cash buy air ticket for her to go for holidays. Not now sorry i will work hard for it. Seems to disappoint myself and hubby peng again and again. Its gng one year i've not success in anything:( Soon!! This time is real. Will put in more effort at work de. Suddenly feel like clubbing this few days:p but too tired. Soon ba:) Maybe this weekend?? heez. Must be able to wake up for work la.. Ever since i lost my phone almost everyday im late lo. No loud alarm!!! Arrgh!! @3#sX!! Next month i wan my punch card nice nice de lo.. No LATE!!!! Good night everyone. Tmr must cheong sales, gotta slp lol... :)

Loves

shirley

2009-05-24T01:49:00.003+08:00

Finally abit of result today:) 12 hs acc 341.. heh heh. Im really happy! Should i resign? I really dunno. Im given a good opportunity by andy i don wanna give it up. I really wan to continue go through all and wait till the day of success. Can i? I have a better offer in my friends company. Office hour, i will have more time with 2 precious can rest more too. My health is getting worse. Kept shivering recently. Dunno why. Im just afraid if i leave one day what will happen to 2 precious? I dun wan them to be left alone. Im worried. I reali duno what to do anymore. After the meeting on monday then decide ba. I dun wanna disappoint anyone.I dun wish to leave apple telecom. I love everyone there be it wheather they like or dislike me. I just simply understand everyone has got their special attitude. As long you understand you wont dislike anyone. Life will be easier. I missed the day in ATTB. Miss the smell the feeling everything there. I felt sad whenever i think of there, is just like my old house:) Hope everyone is fine. My dear FION bought alot of NARAYA bag for me during her trip at bangkok. heh.. Big small medium all have. So happy. She's really a very good sister. I got not much friends but having her as a sister im contented le:) Suddenly miss her so much. hahaha. haiz sleepy liao will continue to blog again:)

2009-05-22T19:13:00.003+08:00

Heh! Blogging at pub....Oops!! Not to worry i'll keep it well after blogging ya:p Today is a bad day, went to help mummy as usual but the way we chat is not as happy as before liao:( Things happen since i broke up with bs. I hate things to turn out this way! I really duno how to explain anymore. Im tired. I really hate you guys for bringing the past back! Why cant just forget my past? I did a grave mistake in the past but i've changed!! Perharps its my point of view. But to me i really saw the different in me. Maybe its still not good but there's still changes. Am i right? I cant even gain trust from such an important person. Sorry i believe im old enough to decide things myself. Im just happy with what im now:) After helping mummy i went temple with her i did not offer joss stick as im really too tired! Waited for abt half an hour then went home. Quickly bathed then... Heh.. ILLIZION!!! ha ha.. Meeting fion sis 9pm @ ILLUZION. Weehssss!! I just want to move on happily w/o any worries. Jia you!!!

Loves

Shirley:p

finally!

2009-05-21T02:51:00.002+08:00

Yeah i finally got my new laptop! Niang buy it for me:p I can update my blog everyday liao:) So long didn't update my blog cause i wanna focus on my sales. Alot of things happens recently. I no longer studying le, felt sad. I failed alot of module:( I don wanna waste time and money,im tired and not enough time for everyone.Most important NOT ENOUGH REST! I don even have a off day that i can sleep till im happy lolz! Now have to pay the school $840. Haiz! I have cleared all my bill! No more debt! But hubby 5k no more le. At least i've cleared all now every month earn and clear! heh! I broke up with bs liao! I know we're true he really dote me alot.I just feel that after all the quarrell and break patch im really tired. Chances has been given too many times. Perharps im at fault too. I just don wan to drag longer and in the end history happens again:( I really want a trust relationship. I can! Just have trust and it will last, but don break trust that ppl had gave you. I believed:X Just sign up for mobile broadband today, cleared $500+ then can sign. Hai!jie ar you slowly return me ok! But MUST RETURN AR! i don wan no money life again:) Arrgh!! eh eh:@ Wah at LG must really work very hard! Must have tactics de hor! Don xiao xiao lo! I will learn alot! For the time being still ok i hope it will improves soon! Im given this chance i will appreciate and work hard. Lost my F480 abt 3 weeks back in pub lo:( Now need to buy new phone but have to wait till 3rd june then can recontract. Abt 2 weeks to go! Wanted to buy camera but after clearing all the bills i better think twice la! Now hp lost really suay! Heart pain all the photos gone:( Now not just camera still need buy phone! Work LG of course buy LG if i cant even persuade myself to use LG how to persuade customer! Use le can learn more! heh heh:p Buy ARENA!! Then when the new VIEWTY is out i'll buy that also. Damn nice lo! Now must find ppl buy camera for me! hahaha! So expensive, the one i like cost $600+:@ Must save in the meanwhile! At least now stable don buy buy buy ltr $0 in bank! I don wan!! Ha ha! I seldom spend on clothes nowsaday. Really need someone to bring me shopping liao! When?? See how la!! Ben xiao jie now busy have to focus on my sec home which is LGT1. hEEZ! Actually got so much photos to upload all gone!! Bought so many things but cant upload to share with friends! Sorry! Wait me buy camera first!! Soon! Real soon..... Gd night! Whatever i've left out we'll continue tmr!

Too Lazy To Blog Nowaday!!

2009-04-14T11:39:00.002+08:00

Haiz!! Been busy recently study work.. woohs!! damn tired.. this month my com sure more more de! cox i have lots of sales. hehe! not that lot la but im quite satisfied with it le:x was sick yesterday! Real sick! After taking the medicine i found allergy, went back to see Dr Hwang change the medicine. hai! every month bcoz of my illness have to spend few hundred on doctor!! I really got lots of photos to upload but really no time ar!! heh! month end going to buy a camera liao!! Bought a Agnes B bag yesterday @ $205 plus a signature chain to hang around the bag @$95. wEEHS! Total $300 heh!! Went back to rest after that!

2009-04-03T16:06:00.002+08:00

Was real busy with work and study have no time to upload any photos, most probably have to wait till school holiday liao. Boosh! Shag. Just reached home after helping mummy. Rest awhile then going bath and for my lesson:p This module is my 4th module which is accounting is really fun i can really understand what its means. So happy:) Will continue with diploma after this:X heh!!

Currently station at lot1:p The ppl there are all mature enough. As in during work im happy everyday. They are all helpful ppl. Have some unhappiness with lena last time but when i work there she's not that bad:) heez. She's funny lol!! haha.. Baoyun is a good and friendly person she does all the paper work of course i help her with some:} dun feel like goung tam anymore. As lot1 is near to my house just a few stop taking train... And sales there is good.. Kent is good also. heh.. Im contented! real happy with my life now:p Whatever i wan not a problem but its seems weired:o when i got no money i wanted to buy lots of things but now when i have the money i just don feel like spending it. I just feel heart pain to just buy those useless things. Might as well save it :p Cresper going school next year also. Must really save alot alot. Don wan them to have bad life..

That all for today.. Mummy want to chat with me liao..!! heh. Auntie talk time ! Bye:)

Back to the lonely me:(

2009-03-24T15:58:00.003+08:00

Im back to the lonely life, miss darling baby lot lot!! Im sorry to have lied but i still reveal the truth at last! I hate everytime promise not to break easily but you still do so. Its was not a big issue i really dunno why! Such a small matter can just say break! This is not the true real relationship! Im at work blogging! Though the quarrell but it doesn't effect my work! I still work happily! Serve customer earn money! Without money nothing at all:p Good luck

2009-03-22T13:12:00.002+08:00

Yay, tmr start work le. So happy!! Yesterday went Downtown east with both precious, darling baby and mei mei. Went to the explorer kids and sign up member for both precious. Now they are a member there it'll be cheaper the next time they visit there. Alot of things to play. They really enjoy themselves. heez!! This whole month i make full use of it everyday full of programme and if tired i rest at home with both precious. Finally tmr back to work must earn back what i spend!! heez. Later going mummy house awhile then go Giant with darling baby!! Tonight will be back home and rest early! Heh. By this year end will consider to buy a car! yay. Got car! Let darling baby drive first till i got my license. Going to book for lesson, Can learn how to drive!! yeah!! Happy!!I love everyone around me!! Went to visit hubby peng today!! really miss him badly.Kept dreaming about him recently. Really heart pain whenever i think of that incident....... Really feel bad. HEARTPAIN! sORRIE once again. Bi will always remember what you've taught me. Loves and miss!

Virus!!!

2009-03-16T20:01:00.002+08:00

Hai. Just finish the IT show its wasn't tiring at all, it was fun. I've learn alot of things there. Im not useless de lei!! heez!! is because no one teaches me how to do it, during this show i learn almost everything mio tv, mio home , mio tv with snbb. haha!! Pro le lei!! heez.This time round go back work i'll put in my whole heart to work well with my new manager and colleague.Most important is i know alot of things i can do it without dispute!! na na na na na!! haha.. Not able to upload any photos because dear dear say my memory card got virus.Booohss! After reformatting my memory card i can transfer to dear dear com then upload le!! heez Lots of shopping to do b4 i start work!! So many photos to upload lor!!!

2009-03-16T19:24:00.002+08:00

Hmmm!! Which one is nice? I like but i prefer buying a LV bag again. Wallet?? So trouble by all this!! Heh

2009-03-13T20:01:00.004+08:00

Mummy cooked dumpling that day!! Full of ingredient inside!!heh!! the prawn is sweet and fresh.So happy:pwent old town coffee with soo yee cousin ate the rendang chicken. Is reali delicious!! the meat is just nice!! Do try it!

Me at home studying last week and playing with baby!! heh!! isn't it cute? :x

I woke up in the morning and wanted to go toilet!! oops!! haha both are bathing together:p

love them so much!!!Thanks god for giving me 2 of them:o

Went darling baby house the day before (IT) show!! I was scrubing my leg and then apply lotion its actually the one i bought from bintan. Javanese formula is real good after the whole process you'll feel smooth is smoother than my face:p Can you see its whitening effect? heh heh!! gonna purchase lioele products soon man!! Seems not bad ya!!heez!! Nothing to do just spend spend and SPEND!! yeah!! I really have a good rest during this 2 weeks rest!! Will plan to go Bangkok most likely july!!! Hahaha!!

Heez darling baby went mummy coffee shop to help out today!! I made my special recipes for him name( SHAKER SWEET)!! HEH!! its my own creative i mixed with 3 kind of things!! Shhhhh!! hAHA

So busy!!!

2009-03-10T18:04:00.002+08:00

Heh!! im so busy recently, just finish my re-exam for business economics today. Wah lucky last few day i study real hard stay at home and went soo yee cousin house to ask her teach me. heez.. The bintan trip was fantastic, it was real enjoying heavenly life over there!! heh!!But everything is so expensive, especially the food!! Thanks dear dear. I went to see doctor yesterday my health has got some problem, but small matter de la.. doctor say some time treatment will cure le..Everyone has to take care of their own health. Health is the most important.heez!! So that you can live longer to see your loves one having good future. Sometimes in life, i just feel that there's always alot of conflict with ppl but after some time it will simmer down everthing. Some ppl tends to continue staying in hatred!! Perhaps you're right sometimes love is blindfolded even your loves one being at fault you still think she's right!! Everyone has stop saying about that issue but i somehow dunno why she still want to cling on that incident. Sometimes do reflect on yourself why does ppl dislike you and not only one, if only one maybe both got wrong but is not. Hai!! Cant be bother la!! Continue your character like that i don see there's a success for you one day!!Don always blame ppl for these and tat. Everyones at fault. Just hope everything end and not continue spreading anymore. Till now i still dunno why you're unhappy with me. Did i bully you ask you do this and that!!No! No matter how much i do i also kept quiet. Did not complain. You dun feel appreciate still go around spreading . Really damn disappointed! Mr Andy lee called me that day... Heez.. Ask me back.. woooh.. Actually im stable in APPLE TELECOM. Just angry over some issue. But never mind im going back to ATL1 on the 18 march !! wooh.. Once tampines open i'll be going over there!! Thanks for the opportunity. i'll work real hard. More sales. Let no one look down!! I wan alot of money.. Real soon:p When i first join APPLE TELECOM it was real wonderful unlike now!! :(

2009-03-05T11:40:00.023+08:00

While waiting for bus we order food and ate at the lobby

Cod fish

We bought this javanese formula leg scrub and lotion

Its windy over there!!

The golf range!! Its big!!

Me and baby!!

Our welcome drinks!! Yay! Our beautiful room!! Isn't it nice?
We reach the resort!! After the ferry we took a land transport over there!!

We're reaching!! So anticipate!!
I woke up after a short nap at the ferry!! Took a photo wjth darling baby!!

Haha!! Darling baby took this photo while im asleep!! heez I was feeling giddy in the ferry so i took a short nap!!

We leaving.. Bye!! heh!! :p

Took this picture b4 leaving SIG!! HEH!! its still early!!

We having light breakfast b4 we check in!!

Darling baby dad's drove us to the ferry terminal!! We were so happy and excited!!

Went out with diana the day b4 my trip!! Her baby so cute!! I brought 2 precious along too!! They wanted to seat on the children car!!

Haha!! He cant hold the wheel if he seat at the chair!! Too small size!!

They doesn't want to get down!! I spend a long time to get them down:p

We ate new york new york at amk hub!!

I was busy feeding baby till i forget to take picture of my food!! heh!!

This diana hawaii chicken chop!!

Sweet just like her mum's!! Drinking milk!! Being a mum is not easy!! When eating halfway baby cry you'll have to feed them first!!

He's enjoying his potato wedges!! haha!!

He's enjoying too!! He ate fast i was so busy feeding them!!I took them to ah yi house the day b4 i met diana!! We went to visit mummy too! Is the top and the short nice they both have the same clothes!! Is from hubby peng friends ( TING TING) she's a sweet and nice person!!She's pretty too!!

Baby eating ice cream!! We went to orchard the day after i went ikea and cleared my room!! We wemnt to shop for bikini!! Our trip need that!! heh!! We went Heeren basement to look for food!! We saw these!! its a japanese street!! Inside they have variety of food for you to choose!! B4 you go in they give you a card, you can purchase whatever food you like they key in the food you ate and when leaving you give your card to the cashier then you made payment there!! Is just like the marchelle!! Its was located here previously!! Its been so long i went orchard!

Baby is full!!

We ate BBQ seafood!! its really fresh!! We didn't eat much because mummy called to say she cooked curry fish head !! Wah!! Grilled scallop, bacon wrap with prawn and chicken wing!!We were waitning for our food!! Too boring so we took photos! Stay cheers!!!The concepts there is really nicez!!! I'll be back to try more other food!! heez!! :x

The drinks stall!They only have japan cans drink!! We drank apple juice!! heez!~!I've clean my room after went to ikea, i bought shoes rag, a small table, a lamp and small containers !! I love my beautiful and neat rooms!! Isn't it neat!! I spend only $5o FOR ALL THESE!! ikea is having sales! I spend hrs to pack everything!! Im so so so happy!! The lamp is energy saver!! Its led!! those normal wan walt is higher it will use up more energy!

2009-02-25T12:10:00.003+08:00

Today will be a busy day for me:pLater will be having late lunch with dear dear:)follow by IKEA shopping!! YEAH!! So happy!!I'll need a shoes rag and a mini table to place beside my bed,of course orange light stand!! eheh!! Im going to decorate my room and clean everything today. Its been so long i've tidy my room..haha.. YEAH!!We've collected our ferry ticket and resort ticket!!
Im very happy!! Will be leaving on 2 MARCH 2009 heezheez!!I'll need a good full body massage over there!! Darling baby colleague went there before and he said the massage there is real shiok and good!! hahaha!! Is about 150 sing dollar ONLY!!! and you actually enjoy a full body massage (different kind of package for you to choose), full body scrub and even a SPA!! amazing?? heez!!I will also be doing my nails over there and facial!!! Its been months since my last facial!! We'll be joining the water sport there also!! Baby loves water sport... Yeah!!Feel so anticipate!!

My last day with APPLE TELECOM was actually sat which is 28 feb 2009, due to some issue my last day was yesterday 24 feb 2009. But my manager still gives me my full month pay which is till 28 feb 2009:)

Im happy because previously when im working in ladyfinger they also give me my full month salary even though they asked me to leave in advance and they would welcome me back anytime!! Maybe my attitude is good tat why!! ehehe!! heez..or perharps their just being polite...haha!!

I've found a job before i resign!! heez.. will start work most likely on 20 MARCH 2009:p This new job entitles me to off 6 days per month also, inorder to have enough time for my study.My Basic?? oopps Im afraid is not to reveal.. heez.Still ok compare to previous job!! is about the same nah!! I dun have to worry for anything, can really have a good rest till i start work! Darling baby want me to rest more:) he's really sweet to me!! oopss!! heez. After the trip i'll have to revise for my upcoming exam!! Cant afford to fail again. I've made promise to Hubby Peng le:)
( zhi xu cheng gong, bu ke shi bai) Yeah Yeah Yeah!! This time round i have more time to study dun have to worry le:p

Wow!! I almost forgotten about Japanese food with mummy, ah yi, yi zhang, jia hui, jun jie,mei mei and of course darling baby!! Mummy want to have a gathering!! So sweet to have my mummy with me!! No matter what happen she is always by my side!!That's why i always say family is the most important!! Have to treasure whatever you guys have now ok?? heez.
Should plan to have the jap food tmr?? heez maybe.. perharps..

Going for a bath now then gai gai lol!! bye everyone!! My life is back to bright!! hahaha!! Super good mood!!

Loves

shirley:p

2009-02-24T11:24:00.016+08:00

Eh please lah!! izit the first day you know jason?? whatever he like to say!! if you were the one resigning ,do you think he'll not say anything about you!! dun be naive la!! little gal!To you maybe paper work is not difficult or maybe you still yet to met the difficult time but to me i feel stress!! Can?? everyone has got different capability!! Dun expect everyone to be like you!! i admit you're clever but im not as clever as you!! So what if i dun have lots of singtel knowledge?? i dun reali know tat y i dun wan to do, unlike you do already so many dispute and amendment!! then wats the point!! As ppl say" kiang dio ho, mai gei kiang" If you really know so much then wat are those amendment?? You still have to call and ask for mio home package on the 23 feb 2009!! Even i will succeed also not in these company with childish ppl like you!! I dun think anythings wrong with my attitude!! Just mind your own business!! I chat on phone is when no customer!! I still serve when there's a customer!! dun kept peeping and listening to what i say to ppl during work period, I like to go everywhere telling ppl i've resign so what!! my mouth right!! i feel tat is nice you dun feel nice is your problem!! Focus on your work!! FIC!!! hahaha!! Those stock you know how to take dunno how to pack ar!! During that time i was not on the phone ok!! me too was serving!! you not serving of course you've to make sure all is kept properly b4 u start to serve!! you just afraid that later you no sales !! KIA SU!!You only know how to say i kao bei kao bu!! is because you dun wan ppl to say you even u are at fault!! everthing you right!! you are not in my life you dun know how tired im!! if can i too wish to be like other!! you think i dun wan!! i take leave is because of exam and project!! mc is because im sick!! dun have to suspect because you've no right!! if you need me to help tell me i'll help but you dun even wan to open your mouth and ask!! I purposely throw everthing i wan you to know im unhappy!! If you dun even know how to protect your stock dun say be a in charge a sales staff also must consider!!So what if im not officially an in charge?? Is been cheat by some one who said to me b4 will increase my pay!! WTF?? forget it!! "da ren bu ji xiao ren guo" Oh ya please dun say tat when in love everthing is blindfolded to me!! Dun tell me you have never ever even whisper a single words to your bf!! Please la!! is very common that a bf help gf!! i dun see anythings wrong!! Why not you try asking your bf help me to blame you!! haha REALI TOO NAIVE !!maybe things you've gone through is not much!! In this world everything is unfair!!you just have to admit to your own life!! And nothing to do with my bf!! dun try to push blame to others! If you're right my bf is really that bad, then let me tell you something "at least he has a gf who don cheat him"!! though i have 2 child unlike you single and available but so what u have a good bf??And even my bf is bad is the worst please remember he's my bf not yours you just have to know more about your bf and not mine!!have you treated him whole heartedly??hahaha!! don make a joke out of yourself la!!!! he's only away for one month! And you know wat you've done!! having sex with ex lover in multi storey carpark!!! Neither less your bf still buy so many gift for you over another country!!
You dun even know how to appreciate!!So what if my bf is childish and your bf is SO GOOD!!
Having you as a gf is real fcuking bad luck!!Actually your bf could have a better life better gf!! But u as a third party suddenly appeared to separate them apart!! Im not as good as wat!! But at least im true to everyone!! Unlike you cheating here and there!! hahaha You don even know how bad you are so dun try to advise what others should do!! Grow up la!! Nothing to do with my mother!! you dun even know anything then shut up!! I help my mum because tat time i have enough off day!! is company not fair cut my off day!! I love and appreciate what my family especially my mum has done for me during my worst day!! Unlike you hate both your parent!! unfilial girl! childish!! Im not like you!!Though i know scolding through blog is sososo childish stupid but this is the only way i can communicate with you and if you think you're unhappy!! PLEASE MOVE OUT IMMEDIATELY!! The rest of the rental for the extra day i'll return you not a cent less!!! Dun say im heartless!! i've been tolerating giving in knowing tat your bf is overseas i did not ask you to move!! I try to talk less to you even move to my bf house to stay for these few days but its seems tat u dun appreciate. I purposely unlock my blog to let you view is because i was angry infront of someone you say alot of my bad things and not only this issue, back to lot1 period, you ever write tat you hate me dun wanna stay with me!! Even i saw all that i also kept quiet!! But you're getting too much even tell others bad about me!!! Since dun appreciate then no point i give in!! Pls move out of my place with immediate effect!! Not another chance for you!! Not happy want complain your bf or wan to ask your bf come find me by all mean!! After all and all!! I just wan to tell you" apprecite wat ppl has done for you"!! if you reali wish to success you cant always rely on others!! Doing housework everthing is what every women have to do!! You're the worst i've ever came across!

Back to work...

2009-02-23T10:41:00.005+08:00

I hope today will be a good day, no trouble, no arrogant face to see and of course no comment from others. Just hope to havepeaceful last few working day. Thanks ar!!heez!!Bad mood? of course not!! haha I've learn something from dear dear,anything im unhappy im right just simply

report to my superior. Anyway one day im still in this company im still the in- charge, im just

doing my job:) Im so so so DAMN happy!! I've comfirm my last day of employment with jason, im working till this month end!! hahhah.. heez.. which is 5 more day including 1 off day.. eh eh.. Darling baby was really sweet to me!! I was sick like hell for the pass one week plus:(first i have cough and flu follow by diarrhoea THEN sore throat and fever!! It was like hell!! Now im feeling much better but i got so many medicine to take!!! I must recover quickly b4 our trip!! Yeah!! Darling baby bringing me to BINTAN LAGOON RESORT!He say can relax myself over there,and baby also ask me to rest for 2 weeks after our trip then start work!!He's so sweet!! loves him so muchie la!!heez!! Thanks my dear!! I'll also use tat 2 weeks to bring my both precious out!! Sorry mummy was not at home this few days due to some reason.Mummy will buy LOTS of things for you all!! And after this month mummy will be home at least 4 days per week okok? hee!!

LOVES

shirley:p

FREE!! NO STRESS

2009-02-18T14:31:00.006+08:00

i've decided to resign!!im unhappy with some issue! i just feel tired and stress!alot of paper work.Off day?im not resting nor having fun!!i too wish to be like other off day sleep more,wake up go meet bf eat follow by shopping!!Do you think i like my life to be in this way!!not i dun wan is beyond my control!!Can only blame myself for being playful and childish in the past!!i brought all this upon myself!!

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peng!! can you see??zhiyu colouring!!but he's playful..don pay attention in class..haha

I just hope all my friends will appreciate what i do for them, reali hate hypocrite ppl!pls spare a thought for ppl, think of how ppl help you when you were alone!Reali angry!!One must learn to admit mistake tat he or she had done!Hate ppl who always think she's right! dun allow other to say her! Pls learn to appreciate what ppl had done for u!! If not you'll be expose sooner or later!!You'll lose everything!And you know who u r!i've never said anything or hate you till i found out that you........dun wish to say.. alot of issue i've already close one eye not i dunno!!just acting blur...

yu and lun playing 2gather!! naughty lun lun!!! cute!! i love both my son ALOT!! no matter wat happen in future i'll always protect them!!

F~R~E~E~D~O~M

2009-02-18T13:50:00.005+08:00

The day i send zhiyu to school.when i saw him in school happily i realli hope tat bb peng can see too!dun worry zhiyu's doing fine zhilun too!

me and mei mei! pls dun say er jie don love you:) still will dote on you bring you go shopping!
is jus tat now VERY busy no time no money! wait few months more ok? we'll go holiday!! PROMISE!

hAha playing himself. anti social!! COOL MAN!! Daddy loves you as well as mummy and uncle bs!!

zhiyu in sch uniform.. BIG stomach!! haha same as your papa:x

i treat Darling baby eat DING TAI FENG tat time!! never ever ill treat him hor!! but in return he bought a bag for me!!haha thanks my dear dear!!

2009-02-10T12:23:00.004+08:00

Da nian chu 1! bai nian bai nian!!we went to visit peng first.baby has to greet daddy peng first !!

Chinatown!! So crowded!!Channel 8 artist is there to perform!!!

I did my nails at Yawen's place!! So lovely!! I love it!!

I name the nails themes ( truty fruity) Nice name? e eh!! heez

Precious crespo!!He's excited!! I took him to Singapore Flyer!During Cresper Bday!!

2009-02-10T12:10:00.004+08:00

Funny Face!! Arrgh@33#So ugly!!hahaha

Yee!!!KISS!!!!

I was just joining for fun!!

2009-02-10T12:01:00.003+08:00

We took lots of photos @ party world!!5 beauty from ATTB!!heezahaha!!

Ronald and me!! i still owe him W980!! haha!!

Their singing happily!! Whats adon doing?? SHE SPIKED DRINK!! she want to eat AMBER??
HAHAHA!!

2009-02-10T11:43:00.004+08:00

We went party world my FAVOURITE!!So happy lolz!Weekend sales very good. Jason treat us.

A good manager lolz!LOVES JO LOLZ.Though she's abit lazy but she's sweet!She company me to buy food yesterday night!

loves

shirley:x

Yeah we both have the same phone!!Hahaha!its been few month we having this phone le!!

Its a good phone but...she has change to E71 black colour and me??not sure what to change:X

We're too boring @ work!! tat why!! hahaha:)

YEAH!! lots of photos to post!!

2009-02-08T12:48:00.006+08:00

I'VE BOUGHT ALL THESE DURING CNY!!still gots lots lots to upload!!

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precious darling just woke up so BLURRRR!

This was taken at SINGAPORE airport!

Enjoying coffee with friends!

posing 2gather with DISNEY friends!

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This was taken during CFRESPER bday!We went SINGAPORE FLYER!the right side was taken during COLIN bday!it was tiring that day!we went out till 3plus AM!!

This was taken during JOLIN bday!!so funny!she was drunk and we went home i still have to wash up for her!!

Wah!! starting it was real ..After tat im faking haha!!

All my lovely colleague as well as manager!!

Beauti 5!!

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Weehss!!wat do you think of when you saw this lamp?i lovess it.i wat a beautiful home of myself yaaa!!heez

loves

pong pong:p

yaya is realii pretty and good in making up lolz!i loves her make up!!sweetie CHARLENE!Really a good and nice gal!

adonic@@@@ loves loves

Darling baby bought my favourite for me:p
loves loves

sooooo busi recently!

2009-02-08T11:26:00.004+08:00

act onliii.... haha..a new me in this niu year!!happy MOO MOO year:x

Precious CRESPO went school le!!its playgroup! he had learn alot of new things in school!And alot o0f new FRIENDS!!Muackzzzz! laogong don have to worry ok! i'll look after them de

heez. copy from jojo this pose! haha funny lolzz

LOOK! haha cresper followed his brother to school!!he seems to enjoyed himself!Im so busi recently, didn't have time to update lolzz!!not alot of photos cox i didn't have a CAMERA yet Gonna buy a camera REAL SOON:p

loves

shirley:x

TOO BUSI TOO UPDATE MY BLOG

2008-12-30T23:56:00.002+08:00

MY HEART PAIN:D

2008-12-21T00:27:00.003+08:00

Haiz dunno wats make daddy think tat way.. im reali not tat kind of person.. To think back maybe my action reali makes him feel tat. sorrie daddy.. reali heart pain to hear all tat. I'll not hate you. REALLI. i just feel tat you shld not have a gf. Mummy is reali a good mom. dunno if she's a good wife to you, but i feel tat she reali care for you though her temper is bad. Heart break to see mummy llike tat also. Though she say till like she dun care but from all her words and reaction i can feel she dun feel comfortable. No matter wat you're always my daddy,i will not take money from you since words from your mouth is out. i dun wanna you to feel tat way.I do care for you. Maybe not as much as wat i gave mummy. I'll show you more concern. sorrie daddy. Reali hope you will not ignore us bcoz of tat women. Hope inside your heart we're more important then her.And dun believe watever crap she say to you.She just wan your heart to be wif her and forget this family. You might feel tat she care for you more then us. This is not true just like i used to think my friend care for me more. NO! its not. We care for you more. No matter wat happen only your FAMILY members will be by your side. Remember? this is wat you told me. I did not forget. Daddy we always love you. Take good care ok:p

Loves

pong:p

2008-12-08T14:43:00.005+08:00

My Darling & Future Mummy:D HEezz:)

2008-11-24T01:18:00.004+08:00

Thanks so much for being a GOOD, CARING AND LOVING hubby!!Laopo always LOVE YOU DEEP inside heart!MUACKZZ :D

loves:D

shirley

2008-11-24T00:42:00.006+08:00

Do you still remember our happy time 2gather??i wonder!!reali misses you, how are you now??? good??did anyone bully you??i know no one will dare to bully you.as you are a good boy who always care 4 others.both precious are doing fine. im fine too.dun worry for us.

promise me that you'll always be happy ok.i did not 4get you. each day and nite i kept thinking

and missing you.kept thinking the grave mistake i've madeim a good gal now.. im true to everyone did not lie like last time.i missed my exam.. maybe too busi didn't even have time to focus on study but i promise i'll not fail ok.i not let you down again and again.this month reali broke lolz!!didn't even buy milk powder and give your mummy money..hahaha same like last time no money face and attitude also different but used to it liao lolz!!next month give her X2 think will be fine le..she also ke lian having such a sucks daughter in law like me i'll reali give her good life on behalf of you i promise..dun worry too much im already trying hard to control

my temper towards them.give me 2 years time i promise your family and my family will have good life..no matter wat happen in the future i;ll always treat them as my family.. love them.

reali feel like giving you a big hug!! crying in tears each time i saw our happy photos.do you know how hard is my life??i might appeared happily infront of everyone, but inside my heart is always in tears.sometimes my heart reali pain just like being torn apart!!hubby i reali miss you alot alot...........

loves:p

shirley

2008-11-14T20:19:00.003+08:00

MR SEE look so cool when drinking!! heez.. so handsome!!

loves

shirley

2008-11-14T19:55:00.004+08:00

wah!! nice cake !! MRS SEE bought for MR SEE during his 21st birthday!! hope he loves the cake.. MRS SEE always love you wor.. thanks for MR SEE loves.. MUACKZ!!

loves:p

shir:)

2008-11-14T19:21:00.004+08:00

Me and twins:P sweetie love you so much:D
wei!!! twins and charlene tks for being such a good friend friends hor... abit mushy lolz..haha.. but its true la happy to have both colleague like you 2.. tks for tolerating my temper.. reali happy to work wif the two of you.. charlene lei.. haha.. twins say you afraid of working wif me ar!! haha.. say i fierce lolz.. i might be fierce but only when working and serious matter.. other then tat i also relax de ma!!heez.. dun wori you wont have chance to work with me liao.. haha im gng lot1 fight for promotion le.. wish me all the best ok..heez.. my life will definitely turns better.. when im better i will not forget all the ppl in attb who help, guide and tolerate me!! heez. love you all!! muackzzz

loves

li xiang

2008-11-14T18:57:00.003+08:00

realli happy to have you by my side will treasure everything you gave me. for now maybe we've to suffer 2gather but give me a few more month once i settle everything we'll have better life. thanks for willing to go through all this hardness wif me. i really appreciate everything. will not let you down will prove to all your friends tat your decision and their support is right. i just need some time. sorrie for my not understanding sometimes and my bad temper. [L]{O}(V)'E' ya..

MY PROMISE!

2008-11-14T18:28:00.004+08:00

hao xin ku ar!!!hubby do you realli think once you leave i will have more better life?

NO! i feel so lost. everything have to pay have to settle myself. every month work so hard

for the sake of better life but now everything seems to go unsmoothly. wat should i do?

i still yet to pay my hp bill, give ur mum money and mummy bday is just 2 days away.

can you tell me wat to do??im reali lost.. do you think i reali should move to the last solutions we

had in the past? but im reali afraid tat once i used this method i might have no chance to turn back anymore unless i really save ALOT! meaning every month i have to save on food, entertainment... im still considering. i dun wan your mum to keep nagging tat she not enough

money. me too not enough but still have to move on. does she reali think tat i got money and not willing to give her??stress staying at your hse seeing her face full of dollar sign.i kw no matter

wat i still got to hang on.dun worry for me i kw wat to do. realli miss you alot. sorry for wat i've

done in the past. now im going through wat you had gone through in the past. i realli tasted the

hardness you've tasted.but im much better compared to you cox i got him who never thought of giving me up. i have family members to support me. hubby this will be my last promise to you i'll realli work hard to save money wont go out anyhow spend money for the time being till i settle everything. my dept is just small portion dun worry less then 1k things i can handle wan. [STARTING FROM 1st DEC.... my life will be better!!!] (MY PROMISE)

qin ai de bday!

2008-11-13T17:24:00.003+08:00

2008-11-10T14:36:00.004+08:00

QIN AI DE BER FU DAI!!

sui ran wo song ni de li wu bu shi zhen de hen gui bu shi she me ming pai dan shi wo zhi dao ni hen kai xin, wo zhi xi wang kan dao ni de xiao rong jiu xin man yi zhu le. qin ai de!!! hahaha!! bu zhi dao ni hui bu hui you wang ji wo de yi tian? wo you shi hen hai pa. wo bu xiang shi qu ni. he ni yi qi wo

gan dao hen kai xin ye hen you an quan gan!! ni shi di er ge neng rang wo you zhe zhong gan jue de ren! chu le wo laogong sheng xia de dou bu neng hao hao zhao gu yi ji dui wo. yi jing hao jiu mei ren gao su wo she me shi dui she me shi cuo le.wo zhong yu zhao dao dui de ren le!ye xi wang zhe yi qie hui zhang jiu!!

2008-11-07T20:17:00.003+08:00

Obvious tat im happy!!! just too afraid whenever we go out..im afraid to see ppl i know..

i dun wan any gossip.. of course i wan everyone to be happy for me. But i just feel tat is not the right time yet. sorrie bs:( bear wif it for 1 or 2 yrs ok. I believe we have good future next time..

just hope tat you're willing to wait go through this 2 yrs wif me:) i knw you viewing lol..dun be too touch till cry hor!! haha..muackz

isn't it too fast??

2008-11-02T14:31:00.003+08:00

mabel asking isn't it too fast to be in a relationship?? i just feel lonely and i think i met one good wan dun wish to drag.. life still has to move on!! (my replied) i told myself at least one year but i broke my promise! sorry hubby i did not 4get you! you will always be inside my heart. i know you'll not blame me as long as i find a good wan. i did not fool ard like last time.. i treat this relationship seriously! will be true! i believe he'll be true too!! i;ll not be unreasonable like last time. i'll learn to be more mature!!hubby pls dun be angry or sad cox im happy wif him.. the most important is he reali dote on our 2 precious!!tat wat i like!!

2008-10-30T17:58:00.001+08:00

my buddy and buddy friends!!!! thanks buddy!!im just afraid............

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NICE CHOCOLATE LEI...NICE FOOD LEI!!GOOD PHOTOGRAPHER RELEASE GOOD PHOTO!!HAHAHAH

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all baby friends!! hahaha.. both precious ar!! hope you all enjoy.. mummy always love both of you!!! MUACKZ MUACKZ!!!

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baby bday,we went sentosa.. we have alot of fun.. all my friends dote on them im reali happy

peng, hope you rest in peace dun worry for me anymore. i'll treat kids more important then any other..they're wat you left for me.. sianz lo.. tell you tat day we went sentosa i spend lots of money lol..lucky daddy still sponsor 200 bucks if not reali dunno wat to do..mummy bought 2 (916) gold necklace chain for baby, one for crespo and one for cresper.. so thick.. unless special occasion if not i'll not let them wear it de lol!! you knw y? cox for the whole day im not able to relax.. afraid tat the chain will drop..its mum hard earn money lol.. reali dun wish to see her spend so much money.i knw she's worried tat one day if she leave us i still got backup. she reali (用心良苦)de lo.. mummy and daddy thanks for everything.. i realli appreciate wat you all have done for me.i'll continue to work hard and not let you all down..and thanks to jordan, rbs, jason.my 2 best cousin, jie and mei.. thanks for gng to sentosa wif me and my both precious.. i guess they enjoyed themselves alot..hahaha

2008-10-27T20:23:00.003+08:00

hubby, i've just found out tat shini grab a photo frm your friendster acc!!im so pissed off!!i send her a msg saying to her pls ask b4 you grab any photo!! do you know wat she replied?? she say wat she grab is not your photo is robin and there isn't a need for her to grab your photo as she have alot at home!!i feel so redundant!!!im so weak!!im unhappy with alot of things but just bcoz i have make this grave mistake i have to keep quiet and swallow everything into stomach!!can you tell me wat more can i do.. im realli tired of all this nonsense.everyday all this gulity, sadness,stress following me!!i want to leave all this!! is only bcoz of 2 precious if not maybe...........
do you know when a bad temper gal has changed into a good gal.. she is working and living hard everyday.. no support only her alone!!!she's lonely and sad everday.. i might seems to be happy and strong but i do have vulnerable times... im trying hard not to think.. really wish to hug you like bears and tears..being your loves one before im really happy!!now everything only me alone!!i told myself be strong.. no matter wat others has said to me i just ignore and kept quiet!
maybe they'll withdraw their hatred frm me one day!! i believe!!hubby will be giving me moral support frm heart rite??

2008-10-26T13:43:00.001+08:00

2008-10-26T13:32:00.000+08:00

2008-10-16T12:26:00.004+08:00

WHAT SHLD I DO!!! im reali stress!!! hubby you told me to find the rite guy.. i duno if i've found one.. i feel so guilty towards you!!i wanted to give myself minimum 1 yrs time but now is just 3 mths..I JUST HOPE TO HAVE SOMEONE TO CARE FOR ME!! i always thought tat im strong but now i see the vulnerable part of me!i cant handle alone!!duno wat to do now.. with our two precious will there reali be a guy to accept me?? do i realli have to find a guy tat has the same situation like me?? have kids married then divorce... cant i just be wif the person i like and have to find someone same like me...im realli worried!! mummy ask me not to have bf whose zodiac is pig,monkey and tiger.. i met a monkey recently.. im realii scared., i dun wish anyone to end up like you again!! am i not in the right position nw??shld i m0ove on or.... my feeling nw is realli complicated.. no one will understand me! i dun even knw if he's a good guy.. should i carry on or step back...i remember hubby you telling me to find the rite guy must knw wheather he reali can accept me wif two kids but how would i knw???moreover he is the only son at hm!! will he agreed not get married?? will he be able to dote my son just like his own? can he accept not to have his own children?? am i too selfish?? does he feel pathetic being wif me??even if is unfair to him even if everyone says im selfish i also dun care.. no matter wat i'll never do things tat will hurt my both precious in the future.. whatever i do i will think of them first they'll always be in piority!!sorry daniel!! even if you cant accept me in the future i'll not blame you.. but i always believe tat if a person reali love me im sure he will accept evrything and treat it as a blessing tat god gave him.hubby im sorry too!!as long as he is good i knw you'll be happy for me!!i'll never let you worry for me..i'll be good gal.. no matter wat happen in the future i'll never forget you and you'll always be the one and only beloved husband.. miss ya

2008-10-13T20:22:00.004+08:00

how much longer am i going to miss you,really tired le.im losing all my strength already!!!

do you still remember how much we went through then can get married how can you just put down everything and leave. my heart reali pain whenever i think ofyou are really the best husband!!me so xin ku do you know

2008-10-12T17:17:00.003+08:00

my dear.. im getting weaker and weaker each day.. babe reali misses you alot. dunno wat to do every day even im sick i dare not take mc im afraid of staying at home i'll start to think of alot. next week zhiyu 2yrs old bday le. without you to celebrate wif him he'll be sad. i reali feel so sick but who is gng to bring me go see doctor??who will be buying porridge for me??i have to do it all even im sick.i know i cant collapse bcoz i still have our both precious.wat can i do? every nite go home got so many things to do.. i reali duno how long more can i hang on. sometimes i reali angry you for leaving me alone to handle all this:(

2008-10-08T11:06:00.002+08:00

2008-10-02T16:23:00.004+08:00

I.ve never let let anyone talk to me in this manner!!! NEVER!!i hate it!when you were still around by my side how could they have a chance to talk to me like tat.. no matter wat happen you are always by by side.. if im angry the first person i think of is you.. always you the only one who can protect me.. no matter wat happen u'll always be the first to console me..but now.. no matter wat happen i have to swallow everything into my stomach.. no one to call to no one to console me!!why leaving me alone to go through everything.. sometimes feel tat i dun wan to carry on anymore but i cant be like you just leaving me and two baby alone.. wat are we going to do?? i always tell myself to be strong never let ppl bully!!sometimes im at fault i cant say anything..for the sake of our 2 precious i'll still persevere till the end!!i'll not let all my effort goes down to drain.. i'll learn from every mistake i've made.. i'll try hard not to make mistake also.. I KNW IM STRONG!! heezz.. always missing you..

2008-10-01T16:29:00.004+08:00

Hubby!!im left with our 2 precious, family and all my friends..sometimes really cant stop myself frm thinking of you reali misses the time with you.. Baby bday coming soon.. will be bringing

them to sentosa and singapore flyer..if you're still ard i know it will make the outing more

meaningful!!i have to make myself busy everyday i cant stop down cause i kw i'll be miserable..

I rather you still ard to make me angry scold me torture me but why must leave me alone??

frm the yr 2004 till now every yr you'll be celebrating my bday wif me this yr is the most lonely bday for me.. and is also our sec son first bday!! how can you just leave!!i just cant stop blaming and hate myself.. SORRY BIBI!!

2008-09-29T20:47:00.003+08:00

Darling, i'll always remember this day our 4th anniversary THE MOST WONDERFUL GIFT.

i don't think i'll have this kind of happiness anymore. Laopo heart really very PAIN.. i realli cant stop myself frm thinking of you..What i can do is to make myself busy but now it seems tat i have over work.I CAN NO LONGER HOLD ON!!i always have to think for so many people im afraid tat i'll hurt them just like how i've hurt you. Im realli scared.. what should i do??no one to guard me through..no one to talk to.. no one to sayang me..

2008-09-29T17:18:00.002+08:00

This is the most happiest time with you.

i really felt the love you gave me.. i know you have changed alot from the day you be with me. Is me who dun appreciate it. From the day i be with you i take everything for granted. whatever i do i had never think of you. Just do what i like. You are always giving in to me. Even those house chores is mine responsible to do but to think back i think i've NEVER done it B4 nw without you i'll have to do everything myself.. nw then i realise how much you've suffered during the 4 yrs with me..my dear im realli sorry:(

2008-09-29T13:27:00.002+08:00

Hubi ar!!Wat happen??y leaving me alone in this world?im SO used 2U by my side, NOW without u wat am i going to do..? I feel so LOST.i knw i've made a GRAVE mistake i knw!! now then i realise ur PAIN!! SORRY! i reali MISSES YOU alot..U R the 1 who teaches me rite and wrong.. wat i should do and wat i should not.. But now you're not with me and i know u'll nvr come back anymore:( IS ME who grow up too slow and allow myself to lose a GREAT HUSBAND!!i kw i will nvr find another person like you treating me as precious as ur life.. THANKS HUBBI! no matter wat u had said to me in the past i'll always memorise it deep inside my heart..I'll make your sacrifice WORTH it.. YOUR BELOVED WIFE:(i'll always love you keep you deep inside my heart so tat you wont feel cold..i kw u're always with me..Missing you always..Muackz..